greggandcyndi

facing death

i'm an emotional wreck.  there is just too much death around me right now...two weeks ago was the 4 year anniversary of my grandpa buddy passing, our administrative assistant at work lost her dad that same day, monday i found out a kid in my youth group lost a family member and then when i was on the way to pick him up, we got in the accident and the next day, cyndi's grandpa died.

i have some vacation coming up in about 5 weeks, but i wish it was now.  i have my annual review coming up on nov. 30.  i'm wanting more time to myself right now, but it is really busy because of thanksgiving and christmas coming up.

i just want to cry, but it doesn't ever seem like i have a chance.  it just sucks right now.  on the big picture, all is well, everything is fine.  it's just what i'm surrounded by right now.  thinking about how much worse the accident could have been, missing my grandpa, losing cyndi's grandpa.  i just need some time.  to grieve.  to be sad without having to hold up. 

a pretty cool couple told us a long time ago before we got married that both of us should try not to be down and depressed at the same time, because you need the other one to help you up when you're down.  that's just not possible right now.  i'm doing my best to help and hold cyndi up, but i can feel the cracks...

sugar water

brennan hadn't pooped in over two days.

last week we had this discussion about why babies aren't supposed to have sugar.  diabetes?  hypoglycemic? hyperglycemic?  we didn't really know.  i didn't see the big deal with brennan having a taste of ice cream or something like that, but cyn didn't want him to have sugar, so i was fine with it.

this morning we called the doctor about b's constipation, and he said to give him a bottle of sugar water. 

so now you know, sugar water cures constipation.

such a thing as perfect

is there such a thing as perfect?  i introduce to you Brennan Brave Hampton!

IT'S A BOY!!!!!

Name:      Brennan Brave Hampton
DOB:        Sunday, May 08, 2005
Time:      2:03 A.M.
Weight:   8 lbs.
Length:   20 in.
Status:    Healthy (All three are doing well)

Posted by D.

Gregg will blog about it all when he gets a chance.

countdown

it's a seven day countdown to cyndi's due date.  we're not sure if brennan will come on time or not, either way, we are very excited.  check out this mini video, i like to call "brilliant".Download DSCF0292.AVI   there is no audio, so you can make up your own...my personal story line is that cyndi, a very soon, mother to be is eating breakfast to help nourish her unborn baby, therefore...brilliant!

escape

there are only a few of my friends that know about this place...and fewer that know how to get there.  this is my escape.  last year, this pond was crutial in me staying sane.  i love this pond.  i have caught a lot of bass and prayed even more prayers.

healing process

as i have been praying an thinking on youth ministry, it has become more and more apparent that i buried my feelings about what happened during my first youth ministry position.  i am asking for your prayers as i do my best to let these memories be healed, so that i can move on in the best way possible, healed and whole.

i think i am going to email the pastor of the church i worked at to share with him how i feel and felt in order to gain some closure. 

time to pray

a friend of mine has a post you should read here.  please check it out and consider giving some time to prayer.

tmj

the other day i woke up with some incredible pain in the right side of my jaw!  it wasn't completely unexpected on the account that i have been noticing my jaw moving over the last year.  and even though it rarely hurts, i thought it time to go see a dentist about it.  179 bucks later i find out that i'm a teeth grinder (you can see the wear lines in my teeth about), and so my jaw is freaking out from all the stress.  they gave me a glorified athletic mouth piece that was a mere 74 dollars, but hey if it will help save my pearly whitish teeth, than great.  i'll have to wear it at night and take ibuprofen to help the inflamation in my jaw to go down.  all in all, i feel okay about it, what freaks me out sometimes is that if it got really bad i would have lock jaw and need invasive surgery.  but for now, i'm okay and i can continue to sing and keep my adoring fan(s) happy.

gregg