i'm an emotional wreck. there is just too much death around me right now...two weeks ago was the 4 year anniversary of my grandpa buddy passing, our administrative assistant at work lost her dad that same day, monday i found out a kid in my youth group lost a family member and then when i was on the way to pick him up, we got in the accident and the next day, cyndi's grandpa died.
i have some vacation coming up in about 5 weeks, but i wish it was now. i have my annual review coming up on nov. 30. i'm wanting more time to myself right now, but it is really busy because of thanksgiving and christmas coming up.
i just want to cry, but it doesn't ever seem like i have a chance. it just sucks right now. on the big picture, all is well, everything is fine. it's just what i'm surrounded by right now. thinking about how much worse the accident could have been, missing my grandpa, losing cyndi's grandpa. i just need some time. to grieve. to be sad without having to hold up.
a pretty cool couple told us a long time ago before we got married that both of us should try not to be down and depressed at the same time, because you need the other one to help you up when you're down. that's just not possible right now. i'm doing my best to help and hold cyndi up, but i can feel the cracks...
we live half way across the country from our families, so it is necessary to visit...but i miss this. cyndi and brennan flew home for a couple weeks in illinois with the fam, and i'm here in colorado all alone...i miss them...i miss you baby...come home.
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