facing death

i'm an emotional wreck.  there is just too much death around me right now...two weeks ago was the 4 year anniversary of my grandpa buddy passing, our administrative assistant at work lost her dad that same day, monday i found out a kid in my youth group lost a family member and then when i was on the way to pick him up, we got in the accident and the next day, cyndi's grandpa died.

i have some vacation coming up in about 5 weeks, but i wish it was now.  i have my annual review coming up on nov. 30.  i'm wanting more time to myself right now, but it is really busy because of thanksgiving and christmas coming up.

i just want to cry, but it doesn't ever seem like i have a chance.  it just sucks right now.  on the big picture, all is well, everything is fine.  it's just what i'm surrounded by right now.  thinking about how much worse the accident could have been, missing my grandpa, losing cyndi's grandpa.  i just need some time.  to grieve.  to be sad without having to hold up. 

a pretty cool couple told us a long time ago before we got married that both of us should try not to be down and depressed at the same time, because you need the other one to help you up when you're down.  that's just not possible right now.  i'm doing my best to help and hold cyndi up, but i can feel the cracks...

Comments

[Jesse A. Inskeep]

Hey… I’m sorry to hear about your losses right now. If you ever want someone to talk to, I can try to help. I’m not usually good at giving advice, but I can listen pretty good, and I usually make people laugh a little with my stupidity. It doses say there is a time to be sad, and a time to be happy; a time to be joyous and a time to grieve. Not in those exact words, but I’m sure you get the point.

Like I said, I’m not good at giving advice, especially to the person who I get advice from, but Christ will be with you. Let it all out at worship tomorrow, and try to let that me your time to get everything out. Let him know exactly how you feel, and pray to be healed.

It seems to help me threw my day at time…

Love ya man… I really do…

[gregg]

"We tend to rely on our own energy, instead of being energized by the power that comes from identification with Jesus." oswald chambers

[Steve-o Schram]

Hey Gregg,
I was reading Nehmiah the other day wandering what the heck to get out of it, and then it just clicked. there Jeruselum was laid in ruins, rubble, and smoke, and mourning. God took that and restored jeruselum back to normal. So, when life feels like its laid in ruins, and that there is rubble and smoke everywhere, hold fast! God will restore you.
anyways I hope things get better for you,
-Steve-o the Terrible!