david and jonathan

do you have a friendship with anyone like the friendship of david and jonathan?  i think there are a couple of guys in my life that i care about and trust in that way, that i trust that much.  in the old testament, it describes johnathan making a covenant with david and that he loved him as much as he loved himself.  later in the new testemant, jesus says we should love each other as he loved us.  well, this post is about eric vanwinkle. 

i met eric, man, i guess it was about 4 1/2 years ago.  at first we were suspicous of each other.  me of him because he also played guitar, and i wanted to be the guy that played guitar, and him of me because i played guitar and he wanted to be the guy that played guitar.  after a couple of weeks we got over that and we ended up becoming great friends and we got a place together.  there were some awesome times when we would sit on the "upstairs landing" and talk about everything on our minds.  he's one of those friends you can admit anything to, because he'll admit the same stuff back.  today i especially needed eric.  people you trust can say things that you won't hear from others.  see, i've been dealing with a lot of stress and anxiety lately because i started my job at best buy, cyndi goes on maternity leave today, i have an interview at a church on sunday and our baby boy will be born anytime in the next month, and one of my main shortcomings is wanting to be in control, only being in control isn't an option for us with God.  he has the control, actually in 2 corinthians 5 paul talks about how the love of Christ should control us.  anyway, i know that i have done a good job at being obedient to God, but most the time i have had expectations about the outcome of being obedient, and eric did a good job of reminding me that it's not about the outcome, it's about the obedience.  we live in a world where a leads to b, but God doesn't always give us b after a, and i have to learn to be okay with that.  God is bigger.  he is God.  so thank-you God, you are my God, and eric...you are my jonathan.

Comments

[Brett Turner]

hey dude, i found your site about a month ago and have been a closet viewer... so now i'm coming out... thanks for the post on my blog....glad to hear that you and cyndi are doing well, congratulations on the baby. this was a great post, God has been teaching me a lot about obidience lately and in my inability to be who he created me to be sometimes I get into situations where I don't feel like responding in obedience to who what I am supposed to, and my jonathan recently asked me if there is ever a time when it's not alright to be obidient, thank God for jonathan's that confront us on our Junk!!

[gregg]

rock on...obedience and an unrelenting love for Jesus...an incredible cocktail

thanks for coming out of the closet...it's good to have you